l SURVIVED: MY 1st AtoZ Challenge memory lane

Today, I not only reflect on the #atoz challenge 2014, but I tap myself as a proud survivor.

I remember trying to back out twice. I really felt intimidated by all the blogs I browsed, the team and the preparations and all.

My first pretext was, surely blogging each day is not my routine and am still struggling to build my niche. So I wrote the organizers and asked to be crossed out. They asked for my blog number which I couldn't find anymore. I had created a new blog all together so that if I balled out during the challenge, nobody would notice, care or comment.

Mid March, oh no not even a single post schedule. Woman are you crazy? That nagging voice mocked, get out, get lost and save face before it is too late. I decided to do otherwise, I wrote like crazy and in 3 days I had 26 posts scheduled. I kept them short and simple and my theme helped. I had played safe by hanging on to random thoughts of mine. Hahaha

D Day I lashed out loud with a post on Adultery and I was like be ready for the hammer. But no, I got support, empathy, hugs and all. And so I went through up on to my T post - THANK YOU! This was my climax, for me it was my finals before the finals. That Thank you meant so much. And as if #Lee felt it just like when I once commented on his blog about my failed suicide attempt, he commented on that post.

Just tell me what more a newbee and wannabee like myself could dream of other than a comment from #Lee, and others from #Michelle, #J.L. Campbell, #Vidiya and her smiles and all the others too.

I visited lots of blogs on random subjects ranging from dogs, tradition, education, religion, society and hmm, I loved #Michelle's babbling books and the smiles #Vidiya collected.

I made some blogging friends too from as far as India like my pal #Vishal, and got hooked to #J.L. Campbell's books where after distraction, I learning how not to get Mad but better get Even.

Should I reveal my theme for next year now: oh no let me not spoil the fun. I stop for now while thanking all the wonderful team, mignons and all and wishing us all the best!

Yours sincerely, Marie a proud:

N as in ...

NO

Hell no right? For once since this #AtoZ Challenge, I will use a negative word!

Wait a second, is it only a negative word simply because you dare say no when you are expected to say yes?

What is wrong, it is a word like every other so why not use it as often as you would use any other?

If you can't stand the abuse, say NO and get the hell out!

If you can't stand the Challenge, say NO and strike yourself out!

If you can't take the blame, face the shame or accept responsibility when you really didn't do nothing, then hell no just scream NO!

Say no to that mean inner voice trying to convince you you aren't worth it!

Scream NO to anyone who tries to tell you you aren't going to make it to the end of this Challenge or any other one you pick up and engage in in this life.

Well, as for me, I will use the word NO as often as I please for Yes I am done trying to please everyone and do it all and fight it all, and face it all and much more...

Publice Service Announcement, And I went Live

Dear all, this is a public service announcement:

You got the preface

You got the trailer

You got the contents

You got the why

You even got a star chapter on Marriage My Refuge

And now in all modesty, I give all to you LIVE: My Amazon Author Page

Thanks in advance for all your comments, reviews and love (or em hate? well that would be honest critical reviews too right?)

Preface to my Book

Ok, before you buy a book wouldn't you want to know what to expect?

I sure will and so I share the preface with you my viewers and hopeful followers.

I am aware of the anticipation and excitement building up to the dateline of March 01.

I am equally aware of the feeling to want to know some more about this mystery memoir of mine with such a tell it all title.

"I am what many will call a dynamic and determined woman. I go by the three Ds of Determination-Discipline-Dedication and yes in most of what I do I strive to do it to my best.

This led me through a life’s lane of Hurts, Adulteries and Redemption as I tried to live out what I consider my 3 in 1 life. How do I understand and live fully my Spiritual, Physical and emotional life? It surely is a tough feat but we can only admit that until we strike some kind of balance to do that, we live on restlessly until we rest somewhere.

I got to a point in my life and I realized even suicide wasn’t a solution, I realized living parallel lives wasn’t a way out, I realized recognizing, accepting, loving oneself in all forgiveness and above all starting all over again and again was much better.

Think of if we had Mary Magdalene’s own memoir in our hands. Well she to me is better because it was her occupation as a ‘free woman” and yet I wasn't for most part of my book. Most of my official documents except for my birth certificate recorded my status as married!

So what will lead a ‘married’ woman to live such a life of spite and end up ‘eloping with a kid’ leaving her 3 children behind is what this book is all about.

My Unconventional Loves narrates My Hurts – My Adulteries – My Redemption. It is My Story of Faith and My God’s unconditional love for me and writing this book is My Therapy.

I sincerely want to make My Mess My Message and My Test My Testimony. I truly hope it Helps more than it Hurts. Well this is my Alter Ego."

I would gladly appreciate a comment or two after all, this week is Love's week right?

My Featured Publication - March 1st !

I am who I am today, but I am the sum total of what I was yesterday.

I am definitely going to be so much more in the future but I have to credit my past in its entirety.

I am therefore publishing my first memoirs and in all honesty, I am proud to be doing so now more than ever – It is my BEST  Therapy and I hope it helps more than it hurts.

My Mess is henceforth My Message and My Tests My Testimonies.

Stay tuned and once more, Happy New Year to all!